The cheating Partners

belive it or not many men who cheat . dont do it because they love you less or even none at all … strangly enough they (some ) will love you just as much as they did when they met you yet still cheat .

WHY? . CHEATING IS ABOUT POWER not love

there lack of self esteme or confidence is boosted when they get attention from another women /man. and they will push the boundaries to see how far they can take it
it gives them an ego boost makes them feel like they hold some kind of sexual power

it becomes addictive and they will do it more and more eventualy getting lazy when there head is so big n swollen that they slip up and they get caught

Ageing grumpy bitches

im not the most argumentative human at the best of times .. always trying to keep peace and make others happy while i die inside sitting there listening to them dribble there useless life in front of me over coffee …. i battle it out with my kids rather well .. i bite back but with other adults i seem to shut my mouth and suffer their boring lives ……

but im not sure how or why but something happened as i got older and older … (meaning hitting 35 ) maybe a mid-life panic im not sure .. but i began to feel more resentment and more anger over these coffee dates i was having … it all seemed one-sided and no one listen to me about my life . they interrupted me to talk about them once again …..

i had to get out of here i had to back away from them but i couldnt bring myself to do it in an argumentative way .. i didn’t wont to explode and upset them i just wonted them out my life peacefully as possible … but the anger built up and i began biting back with them telling them my opinion about their lives … i was quick yet sharp i didn’t wont it to be a long convo about their faults most the time they simply sat there n shut there mouths rather fast . wow that felt good and i wasnt killed

i aged even more and became even more quick tempered at peoles bullshit and just started backing away … hell i got issues of my own to deal with i dont need theres anymore in my life … they bitch they gossip they cry yet wont fix any of the problems ..im sure they like the drama why else would you not fix an issue that is causing you headaches and feeling sick..

many people have been deleted from my life now . and it feels so empowering … i dont thing you need to create an argument or cause a fight in order to have them out your life … that usually creates stalking .. the prank phone calls ..pizza delivered to your door you know you didnt order . or gossip spread about you ….

im just so over it now humans are self-centred  out for their own needs and nothing more and seriously i owe them nothing nor do you . we dont have to tolerate them

from now on in my life if i dont like you im going to tell you like this .

i now so get all those grumpy old women that live peacefully in their small house with that musky smell as you walk by the open front door … they have lived and learnt that humans suck ….

wonderful finds in cemetarys

today on one of our many country road trips with the kids we often come accross small old cemetarys .our urge to stop is a big must .. we walk thru slowly seeing the old crumbles graves . many unkept or even forgotten people ..  as we go thru and read out the names and years of the graves outloud to the kids who are just in awe ,they seem just as excited as i am to read there graves and share there storys … as usual we find many graves where mothers bury there children one after the other … your heart just aches for the pian the mother must feel at the loss of her children … but again this was in the late 1800 to early 1900 . we talk to the kids about how sad it must of been living in those times . conditions were tough and medicines almost nil .make you thankfull for being born in this time .

we keep walking thru this gorgoeus old cemetary hidden away on the side of an old bush road barley even seen until  we find another rare grave .. this one not that old 1988 just 22 years ago .. a couple together forever again … could  this couple be one of the lucky true soul mates who found each other … i know of a friends parents who mother died and his father mouned so much for her loss he died a short time afterwards … can a broken heart really kill you can the loss of a soul mate make you pine or mourn so hard that you pass over to be with them even if it wasnt your time to go …. i found this grave sweet he lost his wife and just 37 days later he passed over too ….sure there could of been something like a accidnet or just bad luck for there 2 boys that there parents happen to go just a month apart but just let me live in the fantasy that true love does exist and these 2 people here were it.. they had what everone drives for what we all seek .to find our perfect match in life and in death …

bringing a new baby home to an abuser

this is a scenario for which many women go thru while being with an abuser … i did it with my first one …

the mother after enduring the amazing birth of her wonderful new life .. often held onto extra strongly as now she has someone to really love her .she spends her few days in hospital feeling special & pampered and looked after . she feels refreshed and ready to tackle what is to come for her abusive man .. her protective instinct tend to kick in stronger now with a  baby to care for and protect ..

he pics her and new baby up from the hospital being ever so sweet helpful and nice … wow she gets a glimmer of hope that maybe he will change .. after all he witnessed the birth and even shed a few tears … she finally saw him in a weak moment for the first time in their relationship … maybe the baby will change him after all she thinks to herself

as they drive home he continually asks her does she feel ok wow she feels a bit special form her abuser … he happily takes baby out the seat and brings it inside … you walk thro the door .. the house smells a bit musty .. but i guess that’s to be expected  she has been away 3 days .. the windows are all closed even the curtains havent been opened ….as he placed the car seat on the floor with new baby she goes around opening windows and pulls the curtains back … the lounge is a bit messy a few cups and dinner plates .. but that’s ok he was left here alone after all for those few days …. you walk into the kitchen …  your mouth hits the floor the entire bench top is full of shit .. un cleaned food scraps .. the dished are over flowing in the sink masterly balancing on top of each other the floor crunches as you slowly step in .. you breath deeper your heart rate rises … your blood boils but you dont dare yell at him incase you set him off on another wild adventure of his temper tantrums .

you walk thru the house … the toilet floor smells of a male urinal theres piss all over the floor … the bedroom is a mess bed not made his  dirty work clothes for days ago scattered all over the floor . the bathroom has 3 towels thrown onto the floor  .the dog looks at you sideways as if it hasnt been fed for days .. the baby begins to cry .. your almost there yourself

but you know you have to suck it up … you push food of the couch move the clothes and make a small space for yourself to sit and feed your precious baby . the baby feeds and settles quickly your abusers offers no apology nor even any words of recognition that the house is filthy his silence says it all .. you settle baby to sleep in a clean bed and spend the next few hours cleaning . almost passing out by the end ..you open the fridge to find there is no food in the house … no meat no milk … he offers to go get milk and bread as if he is doing you a favour  you need to rest and sit for a while but then baby wakes up for another feed ….

and then to imagine what goes on if you had other children to care for aswell …

this is an all to often common event for mothers who date /marry abusers .. they are selfish self absorbed pricks who refuse to be considerate in any way shape form …. not even for his children can this man consider the comfort of another human being but himself .. sure there are glimmers that he cares but leaving you to be the primary career of his children and call himself a father is weak …. he wont help you around the house nor with the baby … instead … he will let it be  known he is uncomfortable with the noise and its greatly disturbing his slumber … so you try raise your children as silently as you can keeping them away from the bedroom while poor tired daddy after working 8 hours a day … takes priority over the house and his children yet again … he becomes ruler of his domain and his people’s ….

dont expect things to change infact abusers can become ever more violent when children are born … they feel all mighty now they control more than one human life … they will use your children against you if you leave … he just has another tool to abuse you with .

HE WONT CHANGE …. RUN MOTHERS

The family chooks

Hurray it finaly happened one of our chooks layed her first ever egg today

here look

our two girls …. or so they told us at the fodder store grrr .. the chook with black tail which is our bantam … decided to crow the other day .. yep she is a boy … and now crows early each morning … so he will have to find a new home … lol very disapointed … hes a cute chook but we ned eggs not a cock who crows …as for my gorgoeus girl who layed her egg ….

our first egg … its too cute and small too …

here it is next to a normal brought egg

day at the beach

with the kids on 2 weeks school holidays .. we desided to go down to the beach and collect sea shells and come home and do some crafts with them .so we got there and the kids ran straight down to the water … which was high in … the tide was in and seaweed all over the place hmmmm

the sun was out but it was still cold … well its winter after all .. to cold to swim … but we walked over the seaweed and began our search .. walking slowing up the beach after 15 mintues my 3 year old is bored with collecting what she sees as rubbish from the sand .. while sister 7 years old is in her glory excited at every shell she see’s … 3 year old kindy tells me she wonts to go home … after 15 mintes and we have only walked about 30 metres …wtf … NO i kindly tell her as she sits there sulking refusing to move ahead with us .instead she sat on the sand as we walked 5 metres  .. ofcourse she came running back over again reminding me of her dis pleasure at being at the beach today …..her constant moaning continues  on  … kids know how to use there pester power dont they … we walked about 50 metres and 30 minutes were up …. she wasnt happy at all .. and my trying to ignore her for the fun of her big sis who was having a ball packing my bag full of shells corals and a star fish hand thingy ..

as you can see she was really not happy lol lol but after 30 minutes of her groaning on we had both had enough … we collected enough shells and nick knacks so she won and we went home

but we did collect a few things and the rest of the day was fun at home playing and exploring the shells together …

Copy Cat

wtf  .im sick of seeing blogs on here and all over actually of peopel so called writing blogs … only to find all they have done is copied a video or story that  has been on the news or in the papers .. with not a single opinion of there own added to the blog ..wtf

if you cant make a conversation about something that interest you

stop copy and pasting a news story and try and make it your own… or at least say something under it .. ..

your wasting my reading time and im sick of clicking on useless blogs … if i wish to see news from anywhere around the world ill go find it … on a news site ..not shit copy n pasted all over the internet claiming to be an original blog …